So I realized when I re-read my post from yesterday that it came across a bit like some of that ‘everything happens for a reason’ inspiration-porn that usually annoys the hell out of me, or that it makes it sound like I think having an unfixable medical condition that makes it take every bit of willpower for me to get out of bed some days is just wonderful. I don’t think I really expressed myself right…

My saying I wouldn’t change anything if I could probably comes partly from my reading way too much time-travel science fiction where someone screwed up their entire timeline by going back and trying to fix something πŸ˜‰ but it also represents feelings of relief, gratitude, and acceptance I am feeling right now.

Relief because I am done going from doctor to doctor trying to be taken seriously and not be treated like a hypochondriac, and I understand myself well enough to keep from getting overloaded – because of all this, my anxiety is so much better. Gratitude because my life is pretty damn good, overall. I have a house I adore, a job where I am appreciated, a stable home life, and people in my life who appreciate me for me. And because of the relief and gratitude, I am feeling acceptance of the things that maybe sometimes are not so great, or even pretty sucktastic now and then.

This morning I sanded down some wall repairs I made in the bathroom I painted with primer last week. I’m feeling pretty accomplished over one of those repairs, as it was a huge hole and I’d never tried to fix something like that before. You can’t even tell where it was! πŸ™‚ I have some other things I am planning on doing, but I am trying hard not to go berserk, do too much, and start the week with a crash.

I hope everyone has a wonderful day! 🌼🌷🌸

Featured Image: Pink-looming azalea bushes in my yard. No filter.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

Powered by

Up ↑

Speaking of Autism...

An autistic speaks about living with autism.


I'm Emily and I have Sensory Processing Disorder

kirilson photography

the stories behind the pictures, and vice versa

The Science Dog

By Linda P. Case

The Zebra Pit

Spoonie Health and Wellness Blog


50,000 Monkeys at 50,000 Typewriters Can't Be Wrong


I'm an Autistic mama blogging about memories and life.

Wired Differently

Random Thought Bubble

Bend, Don't Break

My journey through chronic illness, and why all of us should care.

Science Over a Cuppa


the silent wave

life through one female Asperger's lens

Misti Blu Dream

Unveiling Invisible Illnesses, Health Advocacy, Awareness & Education, Warrior Empowerment

The Nature Niche

Natural History/Nature Photography/Nature

%d bloggers like this: